new years survey

Dec. 30th, 2013 | 06:41 pm

most years i feel like doing this thing, and this year i have a lot of resistance. but. tradition. here goes.

1. What did you do in 2013 that you'd never done before?
had interns? that's been a very special and wonderful experience. other than that, this year hasn't been one for news. it's been one for toil haha.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
yes. i didn't make any true resolutions, i just resolved to keep flowing with the tide, which seemed at the time to be going in the right direction. so far, that has been right. resolution for next year: spend at least one month in spring and one in autumn focusing on art, not clothing/design stuff. go be with the wild ocean.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no

4. Did anyone close to you die?
no

5. What countries did you visit?
us, uk

6. What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013?
work/rest balance. more adventures in my everyday world, not just when i travel.

7. What dates from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
i'm bad at remembering dates.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
sticking with it even when it's been hard.

9. What was your biggest failure?
not painting enough.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
nope i've been really healthy other than you know overworked and fatigued.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
not really a fan of things, can't think of anything.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
so many people. i'm very grateful for the online community of artists that i'm part of .. i've met some truly wonderful people this year, words can't describe how grateful and humble i feel when i think of them.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
people who rip off artists. one of my bestselling clothing designs was blatantly stolen, that sucked. my friends were ripped off too.

14. Where did most of your money go?
art supplies and all the stuff i use to make clothing, plane tickets.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
um i dunno, going to avalon the second time cause i knew how good it would be? and new york city, seeing a long lost friend again, making jewelry! lots of things.

16. What song will always remind you of 2013?
oh shit i dunno. i re-discovered coven after forgetting about them for a long time, so maybe the whole "witchcraft destroys … " album.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier but way more tired.
b) thinner or fatter? the same.
c) richer or poorer? the same, maybe a little richer even.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
reading novels. making comics. painting.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
hating myself.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
stayed in bed with a sexy lover, didn't celebrate christmas

21. Did you fall in love in 2013?
no, but, amazingly, i'm still in love. i'm such a cynic it amazes me that i still love the same person as much if not more.

22. How many one-night stands?
none

23. What was your favourite TV program?
peep show, episodes

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no but some people are drifting out of the picture more and more. absolutely not hate.

25. What was the best book you read?
lá-bas by joris-karl huysmans. i'm so bad at discovering new fiction and disgustingly picky. i read a lot of good non fiction.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
i got way more into metal this year than i ever have before. part of that is it's the kind of music i need when tired -- always has been -- but i've been more tired than ever this year. part of it is that my misanthropy seems to only be fuelled further with age as opposed to what i thought would happen.

27. What did you want and get?
some books. whiskey.

28. What did you want and not get?
i don't really want anything

29. What was your favourite film of this year?
i really liked the hunger games sequel and ender's game but the best one was hannah arendt GO SEE IT GO SEE IT GO SEE IT

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
don't really celebrate birthdays and this year we all forgot about my name day too haha. 29.

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
more yoga, meditation, reading and rest.

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?
according to my dad: "satanist". a good thing about my fashion in 2013 is i started wearing a lot more of my own creations, something i was wary of before. i wear stuff i've made almost every day now.

33. What kept you sane?
surely you jest

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
david mitchell and robert webb ... robert, i'd marry you, a bit

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
consumerism as usual. the whole banks and financial institutions thing. the fact that nobody seems to be as into the concept of anarchy as i am. guaranteed basic income for all. greed being totally OK apparently? gross.

36. Who did you miss?
i haven't missed people that much this year, i've gotten to see a lot of the ones i love! not as much as would've liked though.

37. Who was the best new person you met?
oh, lots! i met like 6-7 new people that i absolutely adore when i was in the US (nyc and philly) and i've got beautiful new friends in sweden that i'd kill for as well. so happy they came into my life. a year ago i said 2012 had been a good year for meeting new people online and that i was hoping to meet them in life. i met many and it was even better than i hoped.

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013.
balancebalancebalance. intuition.

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
draw from the hookah, THE SERPENT WILL AWAKE

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thoughts with my morning tea before i rush out to meet anneli

Aug. 5th, 2013 | 02:37 pm

or — “why i never buy clothes but will occasionally eat a piece of chicken"


so, here’s something that’s been bothering me.

i’ve been a vegetarian for most of my life and a vegan for some of that time. veganism might be something a lot of people still see as strange but it’s largely understood as a concept these days, at least. if you tell people you’re a vegan, they might frown at you or think you weird but i doubt they have trouble understanding why this is your life choice whether they think your reasoning is barking or not. vegetarianism on the other hand has become pretty mainstream; at least in many places, it’s not discussed, it’s just accepted and often admired.

personally i go through phases of being a good vegetarian and a bad one. i care for animals but i don’t personally think eating meat is inherently wrong or unethical. i don’t think it’s admirable either. it’s probably better not to do any harm where you can avoid it but on the other hand acting the way nature has told you to act, even when you have the facilities to examine those actions is something i have trouble seeing as evil. i see it as .. not that great. the way we treat animals in this meat (or fur) industry of ours is abhorrent though and as i can’t really afford meat that has been ethically sourced i try to stay away from it altogether. that said i was raised on a diet of not just meat but deliciously prepared meat of almost all kinds. chicken with rice and peas or chicken paprikás was (is) a favourite. i also really love fake meat, especially (sadly for me) varietes that are either super expensive or just hard to come by here in sweden. these are the reasons that i am, at least for the most part, a pretty bad vegetarian, but unwilling to let go of it as a philosophy and a goal to strive towards.

so far so good right? i used to struggle with getting my family to understand the choice not to eat animals, but they understand me now and eat much less meat themselves, admirable since they are from cultures where vegetarian cooking is largely unheard of. that’s not to say there aren’t many super delicious vegetable dishes in eastern european cuisine, there are, but they are usually served next to meat.

what my family never considered weird though was my choice to try and not be a consumer. making utilities, furniture, linen and clothing (yes, i know how to darn a sock, i learned when i was 5) last for as long as possible and preferably hand them down through the generations was always an ideal, and the natural thing to do. first there were austere conditions, then there was war, then war again, then communism. there was never room for consumer culture until, in historic terms, just recently.

yet when i tell people outside of my family that i don’t buy new things and haven’t for many years now i often get either a “wow" reaction, a “why the hell not" or a “you’re just plain stupid". good or bad it almost always paints me as so special for choosing this. i don’t get it. it is a much, much easier choice for me than staying away from meat 100%. you gotta eat. and very likely, like me, you were taught that meat is tasty and nutricious. but even in the west, consumerism on this scale is not old. unlike eating meat, it has no deep seated cultural roots, except for the tiny percentage of humans that constitute the very wealthiest upper class. it’s something that’s been thrust upon us and we’re supposed to just act like it’s natural — the average swede buys 24 kilos of new clothing a year and we have no good way of recycling textile fibers. i’m pretty sure that if humankind had been 95% vegan or vegetarian for thousands of years and someone, for monetary gain, decided we should all suddenly start eating meat people would say hell no. because why? we had something that was good and then decided to gradually make things way worse for ourselves. let’s say you’re a nature and animal lover, do you really think the masses of clothing and gadgets and home decor being produced are not hurting what you love? why would being a vegetarian be enough, when the natural habitats of animals are leveled to make way for urban sprawl and economic growth, if not downright poisoned? and that’s just from the animal lover’s perspective. from a humanist perspective, this is all even more mind boggling.

this is not to say i’m nostalgic for old times. far, far from it. i couldn’t be happier to be born in this time. it’s just that i want the future to happen, already. we have such amazing technology and so many of us are able to get educated, or if not get educated then get reading and thinking on our own. it’s never been easier to examine your choices. and yet this is where we’re at, mindlessly buying so much shit in the name of the “economy" which is a joke anyway, while killing ourselves (slowly, by poisoning, in the west and directly, in sweatshops, in the third world) to make rich people richer. :(

think this is funny coming from someone who operates a shop? well, i like having it all. i buy second hand clothing&jewelry for myself, i love style and i love buying old t shirts and re-sewing them into new things. and trust me there are PLENTY of those old shirts, and they are nice and soft, not dipped in chemicals. i know i sometimes complain about lack of material, but that’s only because i’m not always able to tap into the right channels. i find new ways of supplying fabric all the time. i’m so lucky people like what i do! thank you.

(currently working on my fall collection, some of which will travel the US so a lot of you guys in major american cities will be able to try stuff on in person).

i gotta rush out the door thanks for reading! xo

(this entry is rebloggable on tumblr)

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sisters of the well

Mar. 3rd, 2013 | 03:13 pm





first proper painting day in ages yesterday. i enclosed myself in a studio bubble of audio books, tea, soda, cyndi lauper, popol vuh and some noodles and didn't talk to anybody all day. glory.

finished this and some custom garments which will go out tomorrow. next weekend i will be in glastonbury, at the avalon fayre. prints of this and many others will be available as well as my entire spring collection of clothes. maximum luggage allowance.

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new years survey

Jan. 2nd, 2013 | 12:57 pm




spent the first day of the new year leaping around the cold and melting forests around my home.

so happy new year dear LJ! was gonna post this earlier but this whole bizniz was down >.< . all in all: 2012 was tough. and interesting. and emotionally grueling. but good, and compared to two thousand fucking eleven, amazing. as you know i mostly hang out on tumblr and instagram these days, i like my social media to be social and there are way too many crickets chirping and tumbleweeds rustling here on LJ. (unless you're russian of course, god bless, i wish i could read your language .. well more so than slowly sounding out one letter at a time and then maybe try to guess at meaning using my poor polish skills ..i mostly use this to figure out the names of artists i like on the kidpix and whatever illustration communities). aaaanyway. i've done this new year's thing for the past few years, might as well keep at it.

1. What did you do in 2012 that you'd never done before?
worked in an earthship studio. made a living off of etsy/made clothes for sale. had a solo show in stockholm. felt deep connections with people (ok it's not that i've never done that before, but this was an extraordinarily emotional year)

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i don't remember my new year's resolutions and never would if it wasn't for this livejournal. hold on let me go back and check this thing from last year. ok - my resolution was to stop sabotaging myself. i wouldn't say i've been entirely successful at that but i did a whole lot better than in 2011. yay go me. i haven't made any specific ones for 2013 … i have a feeling of a direction and a tide moving in a certain way. going to follow that.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
yes and the result is a fine little goblin if i may say.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
no.

5. What countries did you visit?
usa, hungary. whooo same answer every year.

6. What would you like to have in 2013 that you lacked in 2012?
more peace of mind, more good reading experiences, more/better times with friends, calm within my family.

7. What dates from 2012 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
oct. 3rd when i got deported from the us and oct 17th when i saw dead can dance. april 7th when my art show opened (or was it the 14th? whatever).

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
not having to get a day job, easily. i haven't done anything but freelance work, selling clothes and art this year. it's been a lot of work and stressful but worth it.

9. What was your biggest failure?
not drawing enough comics,. wasn't perfectly happy with the output for my 2nd solo show this year either. maybe there's just one in us each year?

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
one cold that lingered foreveeerrrr and a lot of stress induced nausea/headaches. those don't really count do they?

11. What was the best thing you bought?
dead can dance concert ticket.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
my parents, always. the amazing amazing people involved in the secret project i'm working on.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
some friends and family members .. mostly not appalled just disappointed.

14. Where did most of your money go?
art supplies and all the stuff i use to make clothing.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
something that didn't happen. this really sucked - i rarely get excited about things, it's just not the way i roll, even as a child i said "no" to everything and was mostly interested in staying in my room. so when i do get excited it's a pretty big deal.

16. What song will always remind you of 2012?
hmmmmm. the whole "anastasis" album.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? happier.
b) thinner or fatter? the same. my mom says thinner but i think she's wrong.
c) richer or poorer? poorer but not nearly as poor as i thought i would be.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
reading novels. making comics.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
refreshing my email, dillydallying on social media. i like social media but just STARING at them is pointless.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
spent it with family but we don't really celebrate.

21. Did you fall in love in 2011?
no.

22. How many one-night stands?
none.

23. What was your favourite TV program?
breaking bad, game of thrones, QI, star trek voyager

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no. but i'm much closer to luke warm with some people.

25. What was the best book you read?
this was a pretty bad year for novels, i haven't been able to concentrate much. i loved "the women's encyclopaedia of myths and secrets" but that's non fiction. "heartsnatcher" by boris vian was interesting. very different from most things i've read. "my childhood" by maksim gorky was beautiful. i liked a history of nostradamus by some swedish historian also, can't remember the name right now. i'm reading ulysses now (2nd try .. why the hell did i think i was gonna get through that at 13? works a whole lot better in your late 20s, i'm really enjoying it and i keep teasing peter going ".. .you know .. .i thought about something, like, i think we should tell more people because it doesn't seem to be well known but ... that james joyce character is pretty good at writing actually. knows how to turn a phrase." and then peter goes on to try and smother me with a pillow or just kill me in any way possible)

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
oy wow i don't know. i've mostly stuck to things i knew about already. i think. i got more into jazz i guess, that was frank's fault.

27. What did you want and get?
some books. whiskey.

28. What did you want and not get?
stuff mentioned above, not the books and whiskey but other things.

29. What was your favourite film of this year?
i can't think of one made in 2012 that would've been a fav. what i most enjoyed seeing was "girl slaves of morgan le fay". i was gleefully glued to the television and that almost never happens. also … moonchild and they live. i hated the damn hobbit movie (did like the lord of the rings films though) and wish i hadn't forked out hard earned dubloons to see it in the cinema. except i did enjoy the gollum scene. why did i look forward to it so much? stupid.

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i didn't do anything special, never do. 28.

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
i kind of already answered the personal aspect of this above (inner peace, more and better times with friends) so i'll be a hippie douche instead and add the following: i'd really, really like it if advertising was banned from public spaces. it hurts my brain and eyes and i can't enjoy my fucking city.

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2012?
2011 was one of my most stylish and most interested in clothes year in a long time. in 2012 i became a clothing designer (sorta) and my personal style went to the dogs. i've barely bought myself a pair of socks this year. i wore a long black skirt and black top all year pretty much. not bad. just not very interesting or innovative. all my clothing energy went into the raintower brand. also maria wasn't around this year and she's like my "clothing buddy". so that made it less fun to shop.

33. What kept you sane?
hahaah.

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
kathryn janeway omg ilu

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
social and financial injustice and as always, consumerism.

36. Who did you miss?
my american brothers and sisterz

37. Who was the best new person you met?
frankie i think. i didn't meet that many new people this year, i mostly spent it working from home. unless you count people i met online? because damn it was a good year for that! hiiiii and let's meet 4 realz soon!!

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2012.
i learn this over and over but i think more so this year: just go and keep going, trust your gut, life is ridiculously short, you overthink you're dead. DEAD.

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
i am a glossy photograph … i'm better than the real thing.

did you do one of these? post me the link k xo

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a lil issue, need your help!

Dec. 7th, 2012 | 12:54 am

you know how i have a little clothing business where i create new things out of second hand t-shirts and recycled fabric in general? it’s been doing pretty well lately and i’m so grateful to all my customers :). aside from occasional freelance illustration and selling art, this is my only source of income.

i have a problem though - the market where i usually buy all my material is closed for the season and my fabric stash is diminishing at breakneck speed.

i don’t buy new cotton, for ethical reasons. it’s just not going to happen — not until i can afford something that is absolutely beyond-every-doubt organically certified which at this point would up my prices something immense and i’m just not ready to go there, don’t know if i’ll ever be. i’d rather not have this business than buy something that harms the earth to keep making clothes.

so i’m throwing this out there to see if anyone can help! i’m constantly on the prowl for:

* cotton jersey (the stretchy type found in t-shirts), any color, no prints. 90%, 95%, 100% cotton, the rest is usually elastane)

* viscose and modal or viscose-modal-cotton blends, any combo (viscose can sometimes be really shitty in quality though, so i’m picky with that)

whether these are pieces of fabric or garments doesn’t really matter, everything i use i cut up and re-sew anyway. all garments are of interest, even tights, skirts, etc. large sizes are of course a bonus.

what i can offer:

* money for shipping (paypal only). i’m in sweden so most interested in stuff within the EU but will consider everything

* special 30% discount code in my shop, exclusive for fabric donors

* for larger quantities of fabric or garments i will trade for prints, little drawings, or a garment of my making.

contact me via email on info at naomi dot se if you have stuff sitting around in your closet that i can use!

you’ll help out an eco friendly indie business and get rid of stuff you don’t need ;) i’ve started to properly calculate my revenue as well, so starting mid december 10% of my net gain will go to charity no matter if i have enough money to buy shit for myself or not.

thanks for all your support, you’re amazing, i couldn’t ask for better — i’ll do a big tumblr giveaway this weekend so keep your eyes peeled for that :)

XOXO // naomi

ps. i haven’t decided what charity yet, if you have suggestions, let me know. my pet causes are poverty/equal opportunities, women’s rights, animals.

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baba yaga's garden

Oct. 23rd, 2012 | 11:31 pm


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forest ritual

Oct. 21st, 2012 | 05:38 pm




a3 ink drawing. the original is for sale on my etsy, here.

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summer spell

Sep. 23rd, 2012 | 10:26 pm




my work is currently featured alongside some amazing artists. summer spell is curated by jl schnabel and paul romano -- open in philly for a little longer!

it's been a busy year for me, art wise -- i've pushed myself, first in spring, then in summer. these past two months i've been focused on creating clothes though - it's been so nice to work with my hands and i've sorely needed every penny made.

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cernunnos + sword + meadow

Sep. 21st, 2012 | 12:54 pm









i do this to the pages out of my sketchbook, it's relaxing.

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snake glow

Aug. 14th, 2012 | 10:12 pm




"I once read that names which begin with the letter 'S' are the names of snakes"

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