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i can has the scissorz
Nov. 9th, 2009 | 09:32 am
random photos from yesterday + my cat helps me sew a blouse. i got my flu shot, had a sleepless night because my arm hurt so much and then an entire day wasted doing nothing. i'm not sure that i know what it feels like to be reaaaally badly hung over, but i imagine it's something like the aftermath of swine flu vaccine. anyway. plans for the week: get our show invitations printed, finish a painting and start a new one, find cheap airfare, find doors, do some early bird merchandising at aa, yoga in the laundry room, more sourdough baking and watching big love. yours?
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impedimenta
Oct. 28th, 2009 | 02:41 pm
(my fatty black kitty aspires to be a leopard + a slab of porcelain aspiring to be a cheetah. i think they go well together, these two)
it's been six or seven months since i definitely stopped buying new things* and i can finally safely say i've been detoxified, as in i have absolutely no want for them anymore. it's extremely pleasant. that said i love clothes but my wardrobe expands all the time anyway! due to mr charney being generous, thriftshops, friends and mother who want to get rid of old things and some special luck. i had to walk through a mall today and i wanted to close my eyes and pretend like they weren't there... shitty shitty shitty h&m, gina, cubus, home decorating and accessory shops, younameit. humans need to stop making so much crap! it's destroying not only the earth but us too. i would much rather save all that money and buy one genuinely beautiful, hand made couture dress if i felt i had to have new things. it's just that i don't have that kind of money or occassions to wear such clothes so i just leave it. i get free clothes and things often, and i don't think it's because i'm so effing special. there's just way too many things in the world, which makes it that much harder to appreciate the really beautiful, meaningful, quirky ones. or the ones with history.
* that is, newly manufactured. with two exceptions: underwear (which i want to get better at making. i just need a bit of practice and patience) and things i really need, such as ... oh ... lightbulbs. no clothes or home stuff, ever.
ps. the newest issue of vice has interviews with dario argento (<3), david lynch, lars von trier and terry gilliam! (he himself called tideland a bit of a punishment and i'm grateful he recognized because boy did i feel punished). anyway, it was a really fun issue to read.
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rags & feathers
Oct. 22nd, 2009 | 03:24 pm
i haven't been sleeping as soundly as i should lately. and there's been unecessary drama which i've refused to be a part of but it still affects me. you spend hours every day thinking about it even when it doesn't directly concern you. makes me tired. i guess drama queens used to amuse me, but only vaguely by now. i took a little bit of time off, visited lisis and left with the Best Stockings Ever (tm) a red rhine stone - adorned bra and a monstera deliciosa among other things. plus we had a fun discussion about male and female traits. it's hard for me to talk to people about that because you always have to make excuses when you make a statement, like - 'naturally, i don't think this applies to all women/men' - or 'i don't mean it would be weird if a girl had this certain trait, i just think most don't' blah blah. i like being able to talk freely and sound prejudiced for the sake of argument because the other person knows you're not (or, i mean, of course i am, but no more than the next person. one of the things that bothers me most in the world is people who claim complete open-mindedness. i don't think there's any such thing, and they are often the least open minded). the most female thing i could come up with was good flexibility of mind, as in being able to see things from different viewpoints and take many sides of an argument into account (to a fault, sometimes, of course ... but mostly i consider this positive). what would you consider a feminine personality?
ps. we saw "up" and it was a fantastic date night. i was pleasantly surprised at how good it was, i warmly recommend it for a night when life sucks just a little.
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coctails and turnips
Oct. 12th, 2009 | 10:02 am
we had a coctail party on saturday! we took photos and danced, i got my underwear sewn into my dress by accident, and i mixed a lot of strange drinks ("dove special", as promised to lisis, followed by "pigeon love" and "flight of the rats") and gave them away to others. sunday i didn't do much but i managed to clean and organize my closet. i was very sleepy all day and went to bed early only to find myself awake and ready to go at 6 am. i took care of my sourdough (i think it needs about one more week before i can try it out! but it looks and smells right... it's my first one from scratch) this morning and made turnip salad before going to the studio.
(photos by lisis and konstantin, in them, lisis, maria, martina, isabel and me)
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vertical garden
Oct. 2nd, 2009 | 01:54 pm
a house with a wall garden, paris // a strange autumn day in stockholm. i apparently don't know what i'm doing anymore when i paint. i used to have plans for things. now i'm just playing. oh well.
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siren
Oct. 1st, 2009 | 12:55 pm
mermaid table // i got this wonderful drawing of me x3 in the mail yesterday! from lindee.
i also went thrifting with maria and peter this morning and found the best black dress ever and some knitting needles + books for p's nephew who will be three years old tomorrow.
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snaps
Sep. 29th, 2009 | 04:34 pm
i get to paint! hooraaaaay, finally. i carried a gigantic mdf board on my head for half an hour through the city yesterday. i was stared at, but not offered any help. either i've gotten hideous/scary or people in this town are just rude. except for feeling a little dizzy when i got home it was fine though.
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miiicrooo
Sep. 28th, 2009 | 12:27 pm
light fixtures, new to our home! +not the most flattering photo of me but very accurately portraying how i feel. tired and scarecrow-headed. (that's work clothes by the way). maria and i talked about hosting a cocktail party just so we could show off how pretty our home has gotten. i do have one bottle of champagne in the fridge but i plan to pop it open when i'm holding a successfully printed just-out copy of graylight in my hand. the road has been looong with this one. yesterday was fleamarket day with eriksson, eriksson, erikson and me! lots of fun. sold some stuff, bought some stuff, gave some away ... we'll do it again for sure. now to proceed to hopefully getting hold of my publisher so i can send him files for print. oh and more coffee. more!
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homage to tonberry
Sep. 25th, 2009 | 01:11 pm
longeville-sur-mer // FFVIII inspired sketch
me and p walked around most of djurgården yesterday. it was beautiful, and we picked some of the most delicious pears i've ever had. then i baked bread! i'm toying with the idea of starting a book club... just because it's frustrating to finish something amazing and have nobody to talk to about it. or even something not so amazing. about 6-7 people meeting monthly (sunday evenings!) would be perfect. you finish the book in a month, and then discuss it over wine. each time it's a new person's turn to pick out three books as suggestions for the next read, and then you can discuss/vote. okay, i apparently thought about this pretty long and hard. i'm pretty sure i know more than enough people who might be interested ... maybe i should just get to it.
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dapple
Sep. 23rd, 2009 | 05:00 pm
i have nothing special to say today, either. edit: i do, and it's this: i need mdf boards to paint on. ta-da!
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yield
Sep. 21st, 2009 | 12:11 pm
the garden was full of grapes, figs, peaches, plums, pears, blackberries, quince, spinach, lavender, fennel, cabbage, oregano, mentha .. we had close encounters with nutria and bats. and eels in the pond, too. nettles to make soup. spent two weeks in paradise with a rented car and trips to the atlantic ocean most days. had a love story with a small and chipper yet big-eared dog named renée who knew me and martina as soulmates and didn't want to let us go. then a couple of days in paris and now i'm back by my desk correcting the last spelling/dialogue stuff in graylight before putting it together for print.
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i has risen
Sep. 20th, 2009 | 09:08 pm
back in stockholm. started out with a nice and quiet shift at aa (one day a week), dinner with parents and boyfriend and here i am at the studio setting things up for tomorrow, reading blogs and replying to stuff. the dried twig i rescued out of the trash 8 weeks ago welcomed me home in full bloom! it is (just as i suspected, but beyond all doubt now) a hibiscus. all my other plants seem to be doing fine as well. special thanks to peter, valentin, maria and mom for taking care of them while i was gone!
i got two "i'm thinking of visiting sweden, wanna hang out"-emails from old friends today! they are the best. i'm looking forward to this fall, i think it'll be a good one.
more about france and more photos later!
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flowers&fixes
Aug. 25th, 2009 | 03:48 pm
today i planted five plants, got boarding cards and rented a car, fixed a website and a translation and i'm about to clean up a little here before i leave. tomorrow i wash my clothes and cry on p's shoulder because we won't see each other for two weeks. this hasn't quite hit me. but at least we get to meet up in paris!
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fairy lights
Aug. 24th, 2009 | 03:16 pm
lately i've been acting like a teenager: yesterday was spent eating candy and giggling insanely on a friend's bed. all day. smoked a thai menthol (i'm not a smoker but you know, these things happen). sang songs. woke up past noon this morning. i. love. not. having. a. day. job. however, the rest of today will be spent at the studio, working. not having a day job means you work more a lot of the time. but at least you can decide that on a half rainy sunday you act 15 if you want.
i crocheted a pink long sleeve whore-top, too! mostly while on the subway. i think i need to take pictures. and figure out a way to wear it without looking like i'm soliciting.
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baby warlock
Aug. 21st, 2009 | 02:37 pm
a page from my sketchbook. basically what i spent time doing while on p's couch yesterday. he took good care of me and i feel better.
my studio windowsill, yet again. i'm obsessed with it ... i think i have about 45 green plants in my care at the moment (at home and here). 8 or 10 of them are ones i've found and rescued out of the trash. the rest are mostly their offspring and a few that have been given to me. this makes me very happy, because it's what i always wanted ... as far back as i can remember. jungle cultivation.
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gates
Aug. 19th, 2009 | 03:40 pm
a girl i know left town never to come back a little while ago. we weren't close enough for me to miss her, for us to ever call each other or for me to even think much about it. but i did like her and we've talked about real things to each other. (to me, that means things you don't talk to just anybody about, things that matter in your life. i don't do this with just anybody ... this blog is mainly images for that very reason). so before she was leaving i said; please let me know if you're doing a goodbye-thing, a drink, whatever with our mutual friends. i'd like to say good bye. she said, sure, of course i will. i didn't hear from her so i figured she hadn't done anything. then i found out she'd had a farewell dinner with a whole lot of people we both know. if this had been some years ago when i was more insecure it would've truly hurt me and i would've spent weeks wondering what was wrong with me, if in fact all of my friends were faking it and didn't actually like me. she may not ever have actually liked me, which is, of course, completely fine. but i don't get the dishonesty. i know some people think i'm a bitch sometimes, but it's partly because of this: i want the people i like or love to really be sure that i care for them and i'm not faking. there's always the possibility that she just forgot or didn't want to bother me - whatever her reasons, i will never know so it doesn't matter ... but it got me thinking, and it's been like a small itch in the back of my mind ever since i found out. not her per se, but the occurance and the ways people work. i come back to it over and over again, always prompted by something new.
that's all.
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succuuu
Aug. 13th, 2009 | 11:49 am
a new plant on my windowsill, fat and lovely // tie-dye velour sweater from lisis! altered to fit. too much imagery and too little information lately so here goes (i'm always surprised at myself, i love reading these when others post them) ... from fb.
What time did you get up this morning? 9.10 (after horrible voldemortlike nightmares of someone trying to casually steal my soul // Diamonds or pearls? i prefer a good poison ring // What was the last film you saw at the cinema? harry potter and the half blood prince. it wasn't good. i didn't expect it to be. i enjoyed it anyway. // What is your favorite TV show? oz, 2 1/2 men, sex and the city, hung, the simpsons, rachel zoe, sailor moon. // What do you usually have for breakfast? varies. has to very or i can't be bothered to eat breakfast. most commonly either buttered toast or yoghurt with jam or maple syrup. when there is cake i have cake. oatmeal sometimes // What is your middle name? johanna ilona // What food do you dislike? very few things. i hate mcdonalds and all that stuff. not that it's that bad when you eat it but it makes me sick. // What is your favorite CD at moment? aaaaaaah too difficult to answer. // What kind of car do you drive? IF i drive, i drive my mom's audi. // Favorite sandwich? fresh baked sour-dough bread with nothing but butter on top // What characteristic do you despise? lazy, meddling, martyr, disloyal, fake sincerity. // Favorite item of clothing? so many! my best (torn) jeans, my blue skirt, my see through black 3/4 sleeve, all my bustier/corset type things, leggings. // If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? the ocean. // Favorite brand of clothing? american apparel is alright which is a good thing since i work there sometimes, but mainly because it's comfortable stuff and sweatshop free. i never buy new clothes, i make my own or by second hand. // Where would you retire to? an ocean-side old rickety house with a veranda and an overgrown garden with many many cats to throw at locals. // What was your most memorable birthday? i don't care about birthdays, i usually only remember my last one. // Favorite sport to watch? ice-skating and gymnastics. // Are you a morning person or a night person? i like both. mornings a little more so mostly. // What is your shoe size? 36. is that 3-4? // Pets? fat black KITTEH // Any new and exciting news you 'd like to share with us? come see me draw in public on sunday! kulturhuset. wow, that's totally unexciting isn't it. // What did you want to be when you grew up? a rich man's wife, a tree-climber, a witch, a princess, a writer, an illustrator, something to do with horses. // How are you today? getting hungry! no!!! this wasn't supposed to happen yet. // What is your favorite candy? anything home made. the liquorice fudge p makes is pretty up there... i like cake more than candy mostly. home made too, of course. // What is your favorite flower? peonies, roses, rhododendron, magnolia, honeysuckle... but i like green plants more than flowers most of the time. // What day on the calendar are you looking forward to? aug 27th, going to france! // What is your real full name? naomi johanna ilona nowak // What are you listening to right now? turkish retro psych-folk? mmkay. // What was the last thing you ate? i'm disgusting but a mix of the following: cocoa, buttermilk, muscovado sugar and vanilla. breakfast. // Do you wish on stars? stars, 11.11, 22.22, 00.00, eyelashes, you name it // If you were a crayon, what color would you be? dusty pink/mauve apparently! // How is the weather right now? summer mid-day pleasant. // The first person you spoke to on the phone today:no phone calls so far today. // Favorite soft drink? every kind of tea, kombucha, most kinds of slush drinks (guava/honey/kombucha is a current favourite). // Favorite restaurant? koreana, fülemüle, red bamboo, any high end sushi place i can't afford in a million years. // Real hair color? dark brown. // What was your favorite toy as a child? my little ponies. // Summer or winter? summer. winter is great for a week or two. but months of it? what where they thinking! what am i doing here? // Hugs or kisses? both please. // Coffee or tea? tea is my number one but coffee is nice sometimes. esp soy latte haha. // When was the last time you cried? probably yesterday, i don't know. i do a lot of crying, it's not such a big deal. // What is under your bed? nothing, my bed is on the floor. // What did you do last night? watched a little bit of a shitty movie, had some pie, went to my sweetheart's house. // What are you afraid of? my art sucking and being a fake in general and never making a dime. // Salty or sweet? both // How many keys on your key ring? a ton! studio, home, p's place, my parent's place, my bike. // How many years at your current job? drawing/comics 5 years soon, at my current day job about 6 months (but i work 1-2 days a week). // Favorite day of the week? none in particular. // How many towns have you lived in? 4 i think. // Do you make friends easily? depends on how you define friends. i get friendly with people fairly easily these days. good friends are very difficult to make.
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the crying plant
Aug. 9th, 2009 | 04:05 pm
my body is healthy but my head is sluggish and tired. i'm trying to figure out if i deserve time off, and if so what to do with it. there are always little tasks to do.
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honeysuckle + ...
Aug. 7th, 2009 | 03:53 pm
i've done a lot of romantic things lately. plant care, redecoration, roaming empty city streets and climbing where i shouldn't. visits to the countryside. nine different kinds of home made cake in one day (i didn't bake it, someone with far superior skills did). meeting a little greyish-white somewhat pug-faced cat born in 1981.
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ella ella
Aug. 3rd, 2009 | 03:03 pm
went to some sort of fetish night with maria and lisis and then a party in the street by slussen. i don't normally go out a lot, but this was good and i looked like vampirella. it's back to my plants and comics now. next up: photos of plants and comics+me in glasses, possibly. or something else entirely.
ps. i found one beautiful shoe and it fit! where is the other one? gaddamn cinderella moment.
pps. lisis and martina in the first photo, maria and i in the second.